I just can’t stop loving you.  I have tried everything I know how.  I’ve tried logic…I’ve tried being pissed off, I’ve tried being numb, I’ve tried EVERYTHING.  It just isn’t working.  I’m sitting here crying my eyes out because you just won’t go away!!  Not that I want you to, but I’ve felt that it’s unhealthy for me to love someone that doesn’t/can’t/won’t love me back.  But how in the hell do I just turn it off??? I can’t…it won’t go away.  Then when I do see you, I want it all back, but of course reality sets in, and I realize that I can’t have what I want, and that it’s all just a pipe dream.  I don’t know what to do sometimes…what to feel, think…UGH!!!!!   At this moment, I feel like I’m going nuts. And all I want is to feel your arms around me.

I’m such a sucker.

P.S.  I still feel very blessed amidst all of this poopoo