I’ve been re-reading my blogs during my therapy sessions this past few years, trying to find some sort of pattern or correspondence with ANY FUCKING THING, so I can bring some semblance back to my life. Or the kind of life that made me happy.  Anyway, I realized that I hadn’t blogged in almost a year and that kind of freaked me out  considering everything that has been going on.  Well, not with a bunch of people, just with me. So, yea there’s that.. just me. Which in the big picture is just very small, so you deal with it quiet and with close professionals, and trusted medical advisors and find that you are slowly making a snails pace progress.  But hey! Dude… that’s progress.  I’ll take it. Progress comes with ups and downs though, as anyone who’s made any progress knows that.  So there have been many of those cool roller coaster rides this past summer.  But we did have a strong retrograde and now coming out of another, I believe it can affect us in one way or another.  Just my opinion.

But anyway, in my rambling way of trying to get all my thoughts out too quick, i’m going to just type and then probably go back and re-edit when I feel like it.  What ever… this is a story…from feelings, hearts, and brain decisions…it’s going t fluxuate all over.  So just roll with it…

I have found the person I was meant to find in my life.  No, for real.  Like all that fairy ass bullshit.  Yea, I’ve found him.  But let me tell you this one thing… ok… it may turn into a few extra things…but whatever… just listen…….hold on the burrito is done….

PS… There was no fairytale shit… it all went to shit.  

Good while it lasted though.. so meh