With all the mental health issues going on in this world, and the stigma that goes along with it, I’m sharing some mental health options.
I have been diagnosed with agoraphobia and if it wasn’t for the ability to have my therapy via zoom, I’m not sure what I would have done. The ”plandemic” really exacerbated a lot of my symptoms.
Since I have many mental health diagnosis, it’s very important for me to be able to have support, regardless of where I’m located. I don’t know what I would have done without my therapist, and the crisis hotline. There have been days where I’m not sure I would have been alive if it wasn’t for outside support.
Please, if you utilize this program, let me know how your experience was.
I started my site 9 years ago as a therapy tool at the recommendation of my therapist. I have mental health diagnosis of bpd, ptsd, mdd, gad, apd. I didn’t get two of those diagnosis until 2019 (bpd and apd). When I got those last two, specifically the bpd, I was able to fit together the pieces of a puzzle that had been haunting me for the majority of my life. I was able to UNDERSTAND why I was the way I was. I need to be able to do that. I’ve always been a curious person, wanting answers for things.
(I have linked descriptions to the bold and italized acronyms, just click on them and it will take you to trusted sources for an explanation.)
Anyway…my mental health struggles are real. It cycles, and currently I’m in a downward spiral. I feel lost, depressed, sad, I’m starting to cry a lot, and I’m having morbid thoughts.
This isn’t a new thing. It cycles a couple times a year like this, and in the past has resulted in me having to stay on the psych floor of the hospital, 5 times. I’ve managed to stay out for three years, which is good. I don’t want to go, although I’ve learned something that has benefitted me each time I went.
I’ve checked everything on my list as to why this happens to me. Sometimes it’s triggers and I can work through them. Sometimes I just don’t know, and all of my coping skills don’t work. I believe that part of the cause is genetic, part due to trauma, and part due to that I am a loner. Not necessarily by choice, but that’s the way it is at the moment.
I was put on disability in 2018 because I became an unreliable employee. Something would happen at work, and it would cause me to have flashbacks, panic attacks and I became unable to function in a society that is full of triggers.
In 2021, I felt like I wanted to better my life, but I didn’t know how, and I knew I couldn’t just ”go get a job”. I started researching and realized that I could make money online, from my computer from anywhere. In 2022 I jumped in feet first. I has been a learning experience to say the least. I have learned what I’m good at and what I absolutely SUCK at. I’ve cut back on the things that don’t work for me, and put more energy into the things that do.
Because this started as something to help my mental health, I’m still going to use it for that. So today I’m writing in hopes that it helps me, and maybe someone else, make it through a rough and challenging day.
I had to stop and cry…for what reason? I don’t have a clue. It just comes on at random times and overwhelms me. I’m struggling with the fact that in the beginning of my business journey, I was filled with false expectations about starting an online business. I was misinformed, and have been learning that I am not the only person who has felt this way. I’m ok with that. There’s a learning curve with everything, and if I am going to be successful, then I have to be able to learn what actually works, and what doesn’t.
The crying spell was not caused by my business journey. I keep a daily log of my feelings, emotions, activities on Daylio, and it tracks over time. These cycle around the same times each year. I’m still trying to dig deep and figure out why…I mean, I guess I’ve figured out some of it. Ptsd symptoms cause it, constantly being in flight or fight mode. Probably some repressed memories from childhood that I haven’t figured out yet. I also just want to ”be”. Like “normal”.. whatever that is. I’d like to feel refreshed and wake up in the morning to just pure contentment.
I think for the next few weeks, that’s all I’m going to do, is just focus on relaxing, and being in the moment, blogging, and finding contentment with my life. I have a plan for my business, and am putting in the work. I want to get back to more personal posts at least once or twice a week, with recommendations of products or services that I use, or would use. I have a specific idea of what I want to promote and what I don’t. (I’m crunchy.)
But I want to reach more people that are like minded, and that maybe struggle with mental health issues and build a bigger community for support.
I’d like to hear from you too. Let me know what your thoughts are.
✌️
Shassy
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Although studies have turned up mixed results, some research suggests that coffee may help protect against certain neurodegenerative disorders, including Alzheimer’s disease and Parkinson’s disease.
Check back for updates. I’m going to post a video so you can see exactly what I’m doing. I’m excited. I follow a guy on social media who used a LifeStraw to filter some NASTY looking pond water, and he put it under a microscope…before and after…. and it seems to work! I won’t know until I try myself though, because well, I’m hard headed and have to see it with my own two eyes.
Per their site this is supposed to:
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What goes around, comes around, karma baby. Being an asshole isn’t cool.
If you are on the interwebs at all, you’ll have heard about Andrew Tate. The questionable human being who ran a course program called Hustlers University. It was basically a shitty program that didn’t teach anyone anything, and generated multi level marketing type income. You just keep selling someone a course on how to sell someone a course. Which does nothing. For anyone.
He’s been accused of abusing women, blasts out things like “a women’s place is in the kitchen”, and Twitter, Facebook and Instagram have banned him. “Tate’s misogynist rap sheet is long: As NBC News helpfully catalogs so that I don’t have to, Tate has described in detail how he would assault a woman if she accused him of cheating, how he’d rather date 18-year-olds than 25-year-olds because he can “make an imprint” on teenagers who’ve “been through less dick.” On a recent podcast episode he said he’d hit a woman and broke her jaw during a bar fight but “got away with it,” and he has said that the police raided his UK home as part of an investigation into whether he abused a woman”. (Cited directly from this website Vox.com click to read the full article.)
This type of behavior gives the honest online business owners a bad rap. Along with honest men, who don’t abuse women, and who aren’t assholes. It’s not fair, and I wanted to throw out my opinion in defense of us who are genuinely trying to build an honest business, and who don’t abuse other humans.
There are a lot of ”get rich quick” courses, and a lot of them are bullshit. Before I decide to promote a product, I do research on it. I want to see if I want my name, my brand, my words attached to it. Will I make a mistake? Probably, but rest assured that I’ll figure it out, and make it right. I see everyday promotion materials for courses that don’t resonate with me, so I don’t promote them.
The sad part is that any attention, good or bad, will enhance someones online presence. Marketing is marketing, you want to get your name out there.. preferably in a good way, but bad press works too. Tate is a prime example of bad.
I can’t imagine being ok with his actions. Obviously there’s some mental issues there, I mean seriously? There are some people that think his actions and words are ok, and that is terribly wrong. In my opinion he didn’t get his ass disciplined as a child. But what do I know. I’m just glad in the online world, he is being called out and karma is coming around and biting him in the ass.
I love this place. You can get pretty much anything you need for your home at great prices, and it’s delivered straight to your door. I mean, not to say I’m lazy or anything, but I like shopping from the comfort of my home…🤷🏻♀️
TikTok has again been in the news about security issues. It’s been called “data harvesting”, and a security risk.
I’m not going to trash talk the app. I’m just going to cite some information I found, with a quick search and you can make up your mind on your own. Keep in mind that apps, platforms etc. all collect data, it’s how they get their algorithm to work, how they place ads, how they decide what you like to see. It’s all there. I get that. So don’t come at me. LOL…
“On Friday, the company responded to a letter signed by nine Republican US senators, including Roy Blunt of Missouri and Marsha Blackburn of Tennessee. The letter expresses concern over a report that the company gives officials in Beijing “backdoor access” to data on its users. In a response to the senators, TikTok CEO Shou Zi Chew laid out details about how the company is working with the Biden administration on an agreement that would “fully safeguard user data and US national security interests.” (Cited directly from HERE from CNET)
“The eight-page letter, which was seen and reported by The New York Times, acknowledged that China-based employees “can have access to TikTok US user data subject to a series of robust cybersecurity controls and authorization approval protocols overseen by our US-based security team.” However, TikTok said that as it continues to work on data issues, it expects “to delete US users protected data from our own systems and fully pivot to Oracle cloud servers located in the U.S.“ (Cited directly from HERE from CNET)
This is just one article I found when doing a search. You can search and read others yourself.
We all know that apps collect our information. Or we should know. We should read the privacy policies and decide if we are ok with them. In todays society, EVERYTHING is on the internet. You can’t hide unless you know someone. (This is my opinion from my personal experiences.)
I don’t want this post to be political or leaning one way or another, but I wanted to share what is really, old news, as this started back in 2019. You make up your own mind on what you want to do, and what platforms you allow in your life.
What do you think? 🤷🏻♀️ TikTok? Yay, Nay? Is TikTok? too invasive?
Is Facebook, Instagram, and the many many other platforms out there too invasive? Probably. If we compare life now to life 100 years ago. It’s the evolution of society and technology. We either roll with it, and use it to better our lives, or we stay away from it and keep doing the things that we already do to better our lives. No judgement from me either way.
This post is just words. No business additions or anything, not even an seo plug-in because I’m doing it from my phone.
I am so spent. Put a fork in me, I’m done. My heart hurts, my mind feels broken, I’m tired, and my body hurts. The constant arrows of imposter syndrome are beating at my usually impenetrable shield, and I feel like I’m watching myself slowly fall down a steep hill, trying to grab onto anything to slow the slide.
I’ve blogged about this before. There’s so much that frustrates me about mental illness. These cycles are exhausting and I don’t like it. I want to sleep, but can’t. I want to feel happiness, but don’t most of the time.
Some days I just don’t understand why this keeps happening. In the same thought, I’m telling myself that it happens because you’re a crazy person with mental health issues, with no direct support. (Like a human being close to me type of thing). Then I start thinking that this is too much for anyone to have to deal with, so they are better off away from me. THEN my brain goes back to “But you’re only a flawed human being, you can’t be fixed”.
I am starting to believe that. There is no fixing this, it’s just a constant barrage of ups and downs and the struggle to cope. This is where it gets rough. This is where, in the past I have fallen head first into addiction to numb the feelings. I’m not doing that, in case you were wondering… I’ve beat that demon back into the pit of hell this time. Thank God.
This is where the morbid thoughts start creeping in the background of my mind, poking and prodding.
So I’m writing. This is why I created this site almost 10 years ago. As a therapy tool to help me get through the tough times. There have been many tough times, and I’ve put it all out here in the interwebs of digital outer space. I’ve shared it all, from the beginning, to why and how I’m trying to make life better.
But today…. Yesterday, the day before… couple weeks before…it’s been a struggle. I have a toolbox of coping skills, and they are being used, but sometimes I’m just all out of spoons.
Exhausting, depressive, mind numbing. I hope it passes soon. I have work to do.
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