This is my centralized location for everything. It’s all here in one place.
You can scan this into your phone, and it will take you right there.
Please considering donating to camper/van fund. All donations are tax deductible and I will have an accountability person, all funds will be open for inspection. Complete transparency where your donations will go.
Just a quick note. My mental health cycles, and I have to take time out some days to cope.
Today is the day. Traditionally we’d all run out to the stores and get into the hustle and bustle of the kickoff of the holiday season. It’s 30 days until Christmas.
I can’t believe another year is almost over. I think that’s the most freaky thing to me… how time is just flying by. We made it through a worldwide “pandemic”. Deaths of close friends and family, starting a business, and redefining what that goal is, and how it looks. Wild crazy weather, drought, rain.
I honestly want to get away from it all. Seriously. I’m starting a fundraiser to help with finding a camper/van.
Anyway. Back to Black Friday. Here’s my Amazon store finds. Just a few because I tend to be on the techy side, and not everyone is that way. I’m also sharing my Overstock link for shopping as well. Not everyone shops on Amazon. I’ll put in a few just in case.
I was going to put up a bunch of products, but that felt like I was trying to sell you something. When you click the link, you can search for products. I’ve listed a couple, just to make sure the links work, and what I would purchase, but the options are endless. You can find anything online.
Just a quick post to say that I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving, or however you chose to spend your day. I’m, as usual, crunching trying to get my NaNoWriMo finished. I’ve spend too much time “thinking” about it, and am only at about 17k words at this moment. Also the depression, ptsd, autoimmune struggle has been rough. Really rough.
I’m also sharing my fundraising campaign for a camper/van. I have listed the reasons within the campaign, and if you follow me, you’ll know.
Also, check out my short story. It was written raw and while I was dealing with and extremely difficult PTSD episode. But it’s all true. You can get it here on Barnes and Noble, or HERE on Amazon
I know there’s others out here that struggle. I know there is. The anxiety, fear, agoraphobia, heart palpitations. The questioning of everything. “Am I losing my mind?” “What’s wrong with me?”
Currently I am fighting a revolution of self doubt, self loathing, physical autoimmune flare ups, which I don’t think is a coincidence as there have been many studies that link autoimmune, to mental health and trauma. Here’s an article on it from a trusted source.
I’ve spent my entire life, literally, trying to feel ok, and being in a fight or flight situation. I’m tired. My body is tired, my mind is tired. I’m feeling defeated and worthless. You know how someone asks you how you are doing, and you instantly make a quick decision whether you are going to tell them the truth? Yea, that’s me right now. Most people don’t really want to know how you are doing, it’s just a nice thing to say.
I’ve been writing a lot this month, and trying to keep up with everything, but I really don’t think I’m accomplishing that. I guess I’m trying, and not giving up, so there’s that. That counts, right?
I think I’m going to check out today, and actually try to let my body heal. I’ve found that if I put on Chopin, it literally sends me into a state of calm that I’ve not experienced in a long time.
Unrealistic thoughts, fears of dooms day-ish things happening, fear of basically everything has been all consuming. It’s not rational, and my logical mind tells me that, but my ptsd mind runs off unattended and does it’s own thing. Reeling it in is a chore, but I have to work it.
Does this ever go away? In speaking with my long time therapist, she says that in my case it probably won’t, and that I’ll just have to learn to handle the symptoms and deal with it. We tried again to use EMDR, and ART therapy, but I failed miserably. She said that if it invokes anything negative, that we have to stop. My body reaction was bizarre, so she ended the session. We then focused on safe place, and I put the EMDR “buzzers” in my hands and tried to get that to help. It did a little, as I visualized my safe place. She did tell me that sometimes EMDR, and ART doesn’t work for some people. I guess I’m one of those. I was disappointed though because the success rate is high.
One day at a time. That’s all I can do. But there are some days where I feel my life is just wasted on trying to deal, process or cope with some kind of shit.
✌️
Shassy
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This is basically a mini waffle maker. You can get them for around 9- ish bucks. I’ve had this for quite a while now and I love it.
Just wanted to share. You can get your own if you want to, or don’t.. I’m not the boss of you… 🤣🤣🤣. You can use my Amazon link, via my linktree button below. ⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️
I’ve added a short video of me making an egg Chaffle, with jalapeño, onions, cheese, fresh oregano, and rosemary and a few other things. There’s no rules on what you can do, or the ingredients… do whatever you want.
I think I’ve figured out this whole online business thing. It’s been almost a year that I’ve been learning, creating, and figuring it out.
Here’s some things I’ve found out about the online space, and making money.
Money doesn’t buy you happiness. I’ve had it, made it, lost it, and honestly, it hasn’t brought me any kind of peace at all.
If you think that you are going to start a business without investing money, you’re being mislead.
If you think that you are going to make fast money, again, you’re being mislead.
I’ve found out that, for me, if it doesn’t bring me peace, a sense of completeness, and the ability to maybe help others, THEN IT’S NOT WORTH IT, and I’m not going to do it.
I have found what makes me feel good, what brings me peace, and what ignites a fire under my ass. It’s not building funnels, or landing pages, it’s not getting a new affiliate partnership with another company, it’s not sitting in zoom calls listening to rah rah speeches, and being told that I need to do this or that to make money.
MONEY MONEY MONEY. I’m so sick of hearing about money. Because honestly if I die tomorrow, I can’t take it with me. Money is REQUIRED to live in most places in a populated society. But everyone is different, and their goals are different. That’s ok.
I am a lifelong trauma survivor. I’ve struggled MY ENTIRE LIFE. I struggle to this day.
What I have realized is that writing helps me process that trauma, and makes me not want to kill myself. Yea, that’s heavy, but it’s the truth. Building a huge affiliate program isn’t what I want to do. I want to pour my heart and soul into what I write because it feels RIGHT. It’s right for me. So that’s what I’m going to do.
I will probably keep the few affiliate partnerships that I have, my amazon store, maybe my Etsy store, I don’t know yet. But I’ll be getting rid of all of the others, because it’s just not right for me.
So for my followers, thank you for hanging in there with me. Thank you for seeing me and allowing me to find my passion. It’s been a year, for sure.
Follow me on Twitter @hrsygurl. On Medium @hrysgurl. On Facebook. (You can click the underlined words). And of course here.
Thank you. Really, I mean it, from the bottom of my heart.
If you would like to join the writing challenge for November, go to this link NaNoWriMo.org. It’s not too late!
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This is a challenge where you can network with other writers, the general public, or completely keep your writing private. It runs until the end of November, and the challenge is to write at least 50,000 words. That’s 50k.
I’m at a little over 10k right now.
If you divide it up, it’s writing approximately 2000 words a day. That’s easy to do if you can get in your zone.
Let me know what you think. 😊
If you don’t see much of me on here, that’s why. I’m in my mojo and writing, though I will try to check in and share my progress.
Here’s a Story 