Happiness, sadness, nothingness…weirdness

Current update: I started this blog post a couple of days ago, during a time when I was having a meltdown, for lack of a better word. I had it set to publish, but somehow my brain clocked back into “logical” mode, and it put it back in drafts.

Most of the time during a crisis, I absolutely can’t think straight, and I make decisions when I shouldn’t, when I’m “intoxicated” with a certain emotion. At the time of beginning this post, I was REALLY sad, right now, I’m just tired, and sort of numb. The sadness isn’t as overwhelming, and I was able to see through the fog, and realize for a split second that “this too shall pass”.

I don’t know what caused this meltdown. But I’m beginning to see a sliver of light, and that’s telling me that it’s coming back around and coming to an end. I feel dumb occasionally because I feel like I’m to self absorbed and get in this rut and the only thing I can focus on is not going to the hospital. It’s frustrating.

But I wanted to add to this post, before I published, so that if there’s others going through the same type of thing, to not give up…I was able to spend time with my new grand baby yesterday, and that lifts my soul like no other. I also just jumped on my horse and had a quick ride, which completely changes my mind set at the time.

Also, things changed very quickly with the plan to move my horse, my friend ended up not being able to take her due to personal reasons, so Sadie is staying with me, and I’m really glad for that, but also hoping that the issues that are affecting the cats, don’t cross over to her. There is no chemicals sprayed on her pasture or paddock, so prayers that everything stays good there.


Following up with my last post about why I became an addict, is the ever fluctuating range of emotions, other than pain. I’m at this moment, extremely sad. Just overwhelmed with it. I’m tired too. It’s actually kind of scary because I don’t know what crazy emotion I’m going to feel next.

One minute I’m hurting, physically hurting, the next minute I’m numb, the next I’m furious, then I’m crying, feeling heartbroken, then I’m sad, then I’m just literally nothing. I don’t remember the last time I was actually happy. Yes, I do, it was when I was riding my horse. There-in lies the stab. Having to send her back to my friends house because of environmental toxins…

I hate it. It’s hard to handle in a healthy way.

So, I’m going to do what I used to do when I was a child…I’m going to create a goal, dream or whatever you want to call it, so I can plan to go see her on the weekends. Hopefully.

Logically I know she will be ok, she might even be happier being around other horses, since they are herd animals. Although the deer would come into her pen with her and hang out.

Following up with my last post about why I became an addict, is the ever fluctuating range of emotions, other than pain. I’m at this moment, extremely sad. Just overwhelmed with it. I’m tired too. It’s actually kind of scary because I don’t know what crazy emotion I’m going to feel next.

I’m trying to not be selfish and keep her somewhere where she could possibly get sick, like three of the cats are. The vet told me it was environmental toxins (lawn fertilizer, insecticide etc). I’m trying to be preventative, instead of waiting until something happens that’s harmful.

Then, I start to think that she’s going to think I’m abandoning her. Horses remember and are sentient beings. An example is she doesn’t like men. There’s a reason for that. But I don’t want her to think that…but how do we really know what horses think? I can tell sometimes because she nickers to me, and she’s not a very talkative horse.

Blah blah….this is just another dumb post about my feelings of sadness over losing something again. That’s how I feel, like I’m losing. Losing in general, losing at life, losing at everything.

It’s the shits. I don’t recommend it.

I know this will pass, and I can’t fucking wait until it does.


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Current update: I started this blog post a couple of days ago, during a time when I was having a meltdown, for lack of a better word. I had it set to publish, but somehow my brain clocked back into “logical” mode, and it put it back in drafts.

Most of the time during a crisis, I absolutely can’t think straight, and I make decisions when I shouldn’t, when I’m “intoxicated” with a certain emotion. At the time of beginning this post, I was REALLY sad, right now, I’m just tired, and sort of numb. The sadness isn’t as overwhelming, and I was able to see through the fog, and realize for a split second that “this too shall pass”.

I don’t know what caused this meltdown. But I’m beginning to see a sliver of light, and that’s telling me that it’s coming back around and coming to an end. I feel dumb occasionally because I feel like I’m to self absorbed and get in this rut and the only thing I can focus on is not going to the hospital. It’s frustrating.

But I wanted to add to this post, before I published, so that if there’s others going through the same type of thing, to not give up…I was able to spend time with my new grand baby yesterday, and that lifts my soul like no other. I also just jumped on my horse and had a quick ride, which completely changes my mind set at the time.

Also, things changed very quickly with the plan to move my horse, my friend ended up not being able to take her due to personal reasons, so Sadie is staying with me, and I’m really glad for that, but also hoping that the issues that are affecting the cats, don’t cross over to her. There is no chemicals sprayed on her pasture or paddock, so prayers that everything stays good there.


Following up with my last post about why I became an addict, is the ever fluctuating range of emotions, other than pain. I’m at this moment, extremely sad. Just overwhelmed with it. I’m tired too. It’s actually kind of scary because I don’t know what crazy emotion I’m going to feel next.

One minute I’m hurting, physically hurting, the next minute I’m numb, the next I’m furious, then I’m crying, feeling heartbroken, then I’m sad, then I’m just literally nothing. I don’t remember the last time I was actually happy. Yes, I do, it was when I was riding my horse. There-in lies the stab. Having to send her back to my friends house because of environmental toxins…

I hate it. It’s hard to handle in a healthy way.

So, I’m going to do what I used to do when I was a child…I’m going to create a goal, dream or whatever you want to call it, so I can plan to go see her on the weekends. Hopefully.

Logically I know she will be ok, she might even be happier being around other horses, since they are herd animals. Although the deer would come into her pen with her and hang out.

Following up with my last post about why I became an addict, is the ever fluctuating range of emotions, other than pain. I’m at this moment, extremely sad. Just overwhelmed with it. I’m tired too. It’s actually kind of scary because I don’t know what crazy emotion I’m going to feel next.

I’m trying to not be selfish and keep her somewhere where she could possibly get sick, like three of the cats are. The vet told me it was environmental toxins (lawn fertilizer, insecticide etc). I’m trying to be preventative, instead of waiting until something happens that’s harmful.

Then, I start to think that she’s going to think I’m abandoning her. Horses remember and are sentient beings. An example is she doesn’t like men. There’s a reason for that. But I don’t want her to think that…but how do we really know what horses think? I can tell sometimes because she nickers to me, and she’s not a very talkative horse.

Blah blah….this is just another dumb post about my feelings of sadness over losing something again. That’s how I feel, like I’m losing. Losing in general, losing at life, losing at everything.

It’s the shits. I don’t recommend it.

I know this will pass, and I can’t fucking wait until it does.


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Happiness, sadness, nothingness…weirdness

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Happiness, sadness, nothingness…weirdness

Keywords: sad, bullshit, support, crazy, emotion, advocate for yourself, processing emotions

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It’s been a rough 30 hours.

It’s been a rough 30 hours.

Updated: The cause has been determined to be exposure to chemicals/toxins. Probably from what is used on the yard and trees for weed and pest control. Please please, if you have animals, DO NOT USE CHEMICALS.

I am sick to my stomach about this. But there’s nothing I can do, it’s out of my control. I don’t own the property, or the cats, I just nurture, and care for them.


Please, if you are the praying kind, please send some my way, and for all of the animals that I’ve shared… especially Little T.

One of my favorite cats has been diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, the cause is undetermined, but there are many theories on why a cat gets an autoimmune disease.

I have a good idea, but I’m not ready to talk about it yet.

I’m heartbroken. I take care of all of these animals, but they aren’t mine, and I can’t make decisions for them. (Except for Sadie, she is mine)

I also have to move my girl Sadie back to another place, due to this issue with the cats. And because of my vehicle problems, I won’t be able to see her everyday, like I have been since day one.

I have to do what’s best for her, and not think about my own feelings.

Our animals depend on us to do what’s best for them, and this is what’s best for Sadie.

But it breaks my heart, even though I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she will be very well taken care of and loved by many.

(My friend and I had made an agreement before I got her, that if for any reason, I could bring her back. So that’s what I’m doing).

I don’t know what the decision is going to be for sweet Little T and his condition, as those decisions aren’t up to me. He and I are bonded, and I’m very upset and needless to say there’s been a lot of tears.

Please send good vibes, prayers, whatever… this is going to be tough.

There’s nothing better than being with this girl.

I love you Sadie girl.

And to Little T… you know I love you too baby boy. 💔

Sadie and Little T

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Come for a walk with me.

I needed to just “be” today. I’ve been struggling, and it was a beautiful evening, so I just took my shoes off and headed out for a walk.

I knew when I got close to the barn, I’d have some company. CGC, Chapo and Little T came with me for a bit. For some reason Little T has been hiding out in the woods lately. We have two others, Bubbles and Millie, who like to live out in nature a lot. They come in and stay in the cat houses when it’s cold, and are always there for chow time, but they prefer to be out doing cat things.

Come for a walk with me.

I watched them hunt together one day….one stood on the edge of the grass line, and the other pushed out whatever critters they were going after. It was quite interesting actually. Bubbles and Millie are extremely bonded. I did not raise those two, and, well their backstory has some trauma, but I don’t want to go there right now.

I’ve heard many times that putting your feet on the ground, barefoot can really do amazing things for the soul. I firmly believe that. I always feel good when I’m barefoot. Especially if it’s raining. My mind and soul can relax, my anxiety fades, and my mind clears.


Voted Best Portable Power Station by CNET

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This is why I’m working so hard to be able to get my vehicle reliable, so I can try to heal my heart, mind and soul from a lifetime of trauma.

I’m not giving up.👊

Here’s a short clip of our walk today. A longer one comes out on Friday on YouTube.

Hope y’all have a great Tuesday.

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Shassy

Morning fog, with the sun shining through.

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Quick rundown of what I’ve done to the ole’girl. 1999 Jeep Grand Cherokee


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Here’s a quick rundown of what I’ve done to the Jeep….sink, cabinet for storage on top of my power system, a fold out little table for extra space, sink made from an older little end table with a drawer..drilled the hole for the sink, got a stainless steel bowl and drilled holes into it for drainage. Here’s a video. Links to what I’ve used below and in the description included in the YouTube video.

12V Fridge

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How to get the flashlight in the above video.

Foldable/Storage Solar Panel

Bluetti Solar Generator

I am upgrading to a little bigger generator to run the fridge, and an air conditioner (it’s like a cooler, but it will have to wait a while, it’s on my wish list.

With having some mechanical issues happening, I’m slowing down a bit. I can still go to places close to home until I get it all figured out. I have started a fundraiser for repairs on my vehicle.

Here’s where you can donate if you wish, all donations are tax deductible.

Donate: https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/8UlHPKkfJv

Cash App: https://cash.app/$hrsygirl

Kofi: https://ko-fi.com/shassy

Anywho, happy Monday

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Shassy

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Remember when fuel was about a $1?

I was driving out to do chores, on fumes, and stopped to put my last $11 in, and I started thinking about when a 20 dollar bill would be more than enough to fill up my tank.

My mom used to send me up to the convenience store with a dollar to get her a pack of smokes. Now, they are over $10 bucks a pack, depending on what brand a person smokes.

Even just since Biden has been president, things are just so expensive. I live on a fixed income, and after paying bills, barely have enough money for food. And because I have to make my dogs food from people food (veggies and fruits), most of my money for food goes to her.

I’m not whining, or having a pity party, just frustrated. I’m trying my best to take care of everything the way I should, but there just isn’t enough money to make it to the end of the month. Which is why I’m trying to hard to keep up with organically growing my online presence.

I can’t afford to pay for ads because to have it be successful, a person really has to have about $500 budgeted for ads. That would be half of my disability payment.

So organically it is. My YouTube is growing, and my Instagram is as well. Facebook is just Facebook, and doesn’t do much. I was getting viral reels on there, until they asked me to join their monetization program, and then instantly my views went down. Too much control for me.

Anyway, enough of that for now. It’s been a challenging day for me, and I’m trying to wind my brain down.

I wanted to share a LifeP0 Solar powered generator that has some great reviews. Check it out if you want. (Just click the picture)

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This is the next generator I’m getting for my build. I don’t know if I’ll be using the Jeep for my trips this summer, or a van. The jeep is rolling smoke now when the engine is asked for any extra power… like running the AC. My son is looking for another vehicle for me, and so is a friend of mine. I guess I can’t expect her to run forever, even though I want her to, but she’s got 270,000 miles now. I do plan on keeping her though…and when I get someone else to drive, I’m going to rebuild the engine. She’s been good to me.

Anywho…no new news today…other than me feeling like I’m having a breakdown…it’s been one of those days.

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Shassy

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Here’s the Jeep, with a couple of cats. Lol

I got Level 1 EAGALA certified.

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GOOD MORNING to all, or afternoon, where ever you are in the world)

In 2009, I traveled to Lafayette Louisiana for a Level 1 Certification with EAGALA. (Equine assisted growth and learning association)

Here’s a LINK for more explanation about the program.

At that time they still had mental health professionals, and equine specialists, with Level 1, 11, certifications. When I took my three day training, it was in 2009, so I’m sure the curriculum has changed a bit. It was one of the most amazing learning experiences I have been through. And I got a certificate that gave me 23 college credit hours in counseling.

I usually go into these type of things as an observer…but at the beginning of the class the instructor told us to not be surprised if feelings, emotions, reactions come to the surface.

I was literally emotionally caught off guard.

I got Level 1 EAGALA certified


HERE’S WHERE YOU CAN ACCESS ALL OF MY SOCIAL MEDIA, POETRY, YOUTUBE AND MY FAVORITE “THINGS”. ALSO, BE LOOKING FOR MY AMAZON STORE, WHERE I SHARE ALL OF WHAT I USE for HEALTH, WELLNESS, AND MY VAN BUILD OUT PRODUCTS.


At the beginning of the class, on the first day, there were horses in the arena, just hanging out. Enough for all of us, and we had to choose a horse and bring him or her back to the other end of the paddock, with no halter, no food, no ropes, nothing, just ourselves and our ability to communicate what we wanted our chosen horse to do.


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I walked around a bit looking at the horses and trying to get a feeling, and ended up choosing a 4 year old cutting bred gelding. He was amazing. (I almost bought him and took him home.). I managed to communicate what I wanted him to do, and we made it back to the other end of the paddock. No halters, no treats, no buckets of food…just me and the horse.

The next three days brought out “stuff” that I had ignored for years. Stories were told by licensed mental health professionals about their experiences using this type of therapy, some I cannot share because of the nature of the sensitivity of the patients and their traumas. But I will say that one story showed how much this type of therapy works…a young child who didn’t communicate due to extensive trauma, began to open up with a gelding he had bonded with and was finally able to speak his truth, and begin his healing.


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Needless to say, I’m going to go through the training again, for a refresher. Just for my own well being at least.

If you are interested in this… a fully licensed EAGALA team consists of an equine specialist, and a licensed professional therapist. One person can’t be both.

But it’s so worth it. I promise. Here’s the link again

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Shassy

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I woke up. 10 May 2023

God gave me another day to wake up. I am thankful for that. My thought process is that we aren’t guaranteed another day. We don’t know when our last day is going to be in this flesh and bones shell we are given when we are born.

It’s interesting how when I was younger I never thought about my mortality. It was simply survive and make it to the next day. It was never a thought of mine that life is so fleeting. Not until I got older and started losing people that I loved and cared about. Maybe that’s the progression of life…at least that’s the way I feel now. The ole’ saying “live and learn”. If we are lucky, we can live.

I struggle with my past. Things that I cannot change, things that I wish I knew then, that I know now. I’m sure there are others that feel that way.

I wish I had understood my mental illness so I could have addressed it sooner, and made different choices and decisions. Wish in one hand and shit in the other and see which one fills up first. Haha.

But that’s not how it works. We don’t get to go back in time like Sassenach (Outlander plug) and find a completely different life. Because if we could, I’d change a lot. Mostly my morass of a so called brain function. I’d take away all the trauma, and embrace all the love and nurture it into my future. I’d have my two wonderful children, who are now adults, and I’d share with them how to process emotions, that failure is not weakness, that crying is not shameful. I’d talk more to them about life, and things in general. Not be so stoic and “strong”, or what I thought was strong.

I woke up. 10 May 2023

We are human beings full of faults, and happiness and we make mistakes…..I wish I could have been able to articulate all of those things, so my kids could have had a mother who wasn’t so fucked up.

But I can’t. All I can do is learn from my mistakes and move forward and try to do better. I was talking about that with a family member the other day. Logically I know that is true, but emotionally it’s hard. I am my own worst enemy.

Yesterday I cycled fast, and got up out of it. This morning it’s a flare up, and I awoke with an anxiety attack, and nausea. This is part of it. This morning I broke down and took my prn medication, because sometimes I just don’t have enough spoons.

And that’s ok.

When talking to my therapist, she tells me that when it gets to be too much, that I need to do my coping skills, and take my prn meds, when nothing else is working. Then I struggle with feeling like I’m not doing enough. Basically I need to learn to forgive myself and allow grace to enter my life.


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My vehicle needs major maintenance…nothing that isn’t out of the ordinary for a 24 year old Jeep, that has 270,000 miles on her. I love this vehicle, I love that she’s gotten me everywhere and still does, even being old. I’m trying to raise funds to get the engine rebuilt…rings are going out, and she’s burning the midnight oil, valve cover gaskets are shot…you know the things that happen with an old engine. I’ve done all regular maintenance, and fixed things that needed fixed when they broke…alternator, heater core, starter, oil changes, brake booster, spark plugs, radiator hoses, serpentine belt, battery. I have a water pump and we need to find the coolant leak. My son is on that. But he works a full time job, has a fiancé and a cute, smart, loving son, and another son on the way in about a week. So I don’t want to ask too much of him. He helps me so much.

So I guess the point of this post is to remind myself to not give up. Because there are times when I want to. I need to find the joy in the things that used to bring me so much happiness. Because lately, there’s no joy. I’m faking it. Putting on that mask when I have to, and isolating when I need to. Although I enjoy my alone time. I used to say that I wish I had someone to spend it with, but these days that’s not an issue. I love being alone, I love spending time in nature and with animals.

Thinking about starting a meal plan, or cleaning up your pantry? Try this, it’s legit.

Ideally I’m looking to get a van and built it out. Put my stuff in storage and just be in the earth. Be in my life, find the peace I’ve had in the past, so long ago. If I find another human to spend that time with, then great, but if I don’t, I’m ok with that too.

Count your blessings, and if you don’t think you have any, then just stop moving and look around you… there is ALWAYS something to be thankful for, always. Trust me on that.

In five days I turn 54…54!!! I never even thought of being this age. Life is crazy, fun, sad, boring, normal…embrace all of it.

So happy Wednesday. I wish you all to have a great day, and if you are struggling, don’t hesitate to reach out to someone, or dial 988 for immediate help.

Thanks for reading, and if you want to donate to the van fund, there’s links in my linktree HERE.

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Shassy

Here’s a short clip with my girl. She’s a retired service dog, who still performs tasks for me at home, directly related to my disabilities. I don’t ask much of her, but her instinctual alerting capability, never goes away. But we try to just have fun these days. She ten this year. My ride or die

Sunrises are the best, May 8, 2023

Woke up around 4-ish and debated what I wanted to do…I was instantly hit with “challenges”. But I got up, fed the dog and got things ready to head out.

Got to the ranch and the storm clouds were covering the sunrise and I thought it was just gorgeous. Did a real quick set up of my camera, and tried to catch it. Got a little…

The sun is life. Without it everything gets discombobulated. Including my brain. I try to get as much sun as I can handle…though some days it causes a flare up, but I get out in it anyway. During the winter I have sun light bulbs, mostly for my indoor plants, but also for myself. Seasonal affective disorder is a real thing.


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I cycled really fast this morning. Haven’t figured out the whys about it, so I just try to deal with it. I made it! I almost put myself back to bed with a Xanax because I was in a shitty anxiety attack that was lasting forever.

But I didn’t. I went and prepped my garden and ran the weed eater on my little back yard. I decided to try my entire garden from seed this year. Flowers, tomatoes, and cucumbers. If I don’t see them sprouting in a couple of weeks, then I’ll go get some that have already been started, but normally I do fairly well with seeds.

Sunrises are the best, May 8, 2023

I planted a lot of insect friendly seeds, and some climbing seeds. Fingers crossed everything goes well. We are supposed to get some rain today and tonight, so hopefully that will help as well. I don’t have any areas that the water runs off, so I THINK the seeds I plopped on the ground, will stay. I did cover them a bit. Technically I’m not supposed to plant anything “in the ground”, it has to be in pots, but I did it anyway. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Anywho…thanks for reading, and here’s the video I took of the sun and clouds. So beautiful.

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Shassy

I am sitting here on my pity pot today. Also, guess what day it is? Yep, 4/20.

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Good morning, or afternoon….

Spent the night at the ranch in my #jeepminicamper, enjoyed a great thunderstorm and realized I need to NOT leave the window open without my screens on…I shooed out a zillion flies before the storm. Isn’t there something that says lots of flies arrive before rain? Well I found all of them…at least that’s what it seemed like.

The other night I was looking for something to eat…and found a box of Mac and cheese that I had gotten from the food bank. (Yes, I’ll admit, sometimes I go to the food bank…. Living on a fixed income is hard some months.). Anywho, I fixed that box of Mac and Cheese, and took a bite, and thought I was going to throw up. It has to have been the nastiest thing I’ve tasted in a long time. I put the rest in the freezer in case I have nothing else to eat.

Yesterday I worked on the camper for a while, and re-injured the disc in my lower back. So now I’m back to doing nothing, ice heat, and tens unit. And I’m upset, crying, frustrated, thankful, all of it all at once.

I am sitting here on my pity pot today. Also, guess what day it is? Yep, 4/20.

I’m supposed to see a neurologist in the beginning of May, if I can get my car running…the check engine light came on, and I took it to my son (who is a master mechanic) to read the codes, and it showed a piston 1 misfire. Which is probably just a spark plug issue. I hope so, the ole girl has 270,000 miles on her. Right now I stick to only going to do chores, and the store only when I have to.

Money is tight, I’m cutting back as much as I can. I have to make Zoey’s food, and yes, I get food benefits, of $128 a month, and a lot of that goes to her, because of her development of food allergies. (Chicken, eggs, corn, soy, wheat, salmon, and any type of byproduct of those ingredients. Which if you look in the dog food kibble ingredients, you will find all or some of those.) I’m not proud of that, but there’s nothing else I can do at this point. So I cook things that I can eat as well as Zoey.

On to that…I am on disability…I’m not a dependable employee anymore due to mental health issues. I’ve talked about those before on this blog. I went through, and still go through times where I feel like I’m a useless pile of bones covered in skin. This is not how I wanted it to be, I wanted to finish my degree and take care of people. But symptoms became uncontrollable, and it affected my ability to function on a daily basis. My therapist referred me to their attorney for the process of disability. Which took two years from the time he took my case, to the judge’s decision. The only way I am able to afford my rent, is because I also have a HUD subsidy that pays for half of it. I have low income energy assistance, food benefits, subsidized housing, and a 24 year old car.

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Would I love to change that? Yes. So I’m trying to do whatever I can using my computer.. What I’ve found is that if you want to make money fairly quickly, (like within a year), you have to HAVE money to invest in training, hosting for a website, and at least $500 a month for advertising. $500 is half of what the government sends me for my monthly disability benefit. So needless to say, I’m not going the “fast” route. I’m trying to do it all organically, and learn as I go. I’m really enjoying my YouTube channel, and interacting and sharing what brings me peace.

At this point in my life peace is all I want.

I cannot handle any type of trauma, stress, dysfunction or cruelty. Although am not afraid of a confrontation, and will defend myself, my family and friends, I steer clear of it if I get any red flags.

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I guess I’m not really on my pity pot, just all up in my feelings. Frustrated with my physical issues, because there is no cure, it’s degenerative, and things are running through my mind… like if I’m ever going to ride again…which I will…but it scares me because I knew exactly what I did yesterday to cause this flare up…which means that I have to baby things. Like don’t bend a certain way, which is exactly what I did yesterday trying to lift this wooden bench I made, and that’s when I re-injured myself.

I’m not used to not being able to do what I want to do…but I guess it is what it is.

Happy Thursday and thanks for listening. I know there are many blessings in my life, and I count them everyday and include those people that are my blessings, in my prayers.

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Shassy

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