It’s been rough. 14 days of cycling, I’m tired.

These past couple of weeks have been rough. Fatigue coming out of a down cycle is real. One day at a time is all I’ve been able to do. I’m barely putting up content on my social media, but I’ve managed to keep up with that. Today I feel like I haven’t slept in a week, though I am getting at least 4 hours a night. Sometimes 5 if I go jeep camping. For some reason I sleep better when I’m out in the middle of nowhere. Go figure.

On Friday, Martin, one of our cats was stuck in the pool. This year was a maintenance year, so the pool was completely drained after the winter, and someone was hired to come in and sandblast and repaint it. The pool is sloped, and it was super slick, and Martin and all of his 9 cat lives, decided to go investigate. He got in, and down to the bottom, but couldn’t get back up because he couldn’t get traction. I took a video of it…I got him out and you can see that he was very thankful. 💜

It’s been rough. 14 days of cycling. I’m tired.

He was a happy camper. The pool is full now no we don’t have to worry about curious kitties going for a slide.

My second grand baby is due in about a week. I’m so excited. A little boy, they already have his name picked out and are ready for him to be here. I’m still in awe that my first grandson is already in kindergarten. Time goes so fast.

Today is a food prep day. If you follow me, you know that last November my dog, Zoey, started having what turned out to be an allergic reaction to almost everything. Through trial and error and an elimination diet, I’ve found that she’s specifically allergic to a certain type of protein. I’m still researching, but whatever is in any type of meat, or meat by products, she’s allergic to. She can only have minimal meat. It’s also caused her body to reject anything that has anything to do with wheat, corn, soy, rice, salmon, eggs…basically everything that is in even limited ingredient dog food. So I make her food.

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I was looking at some videos from last summer and she “looked” like she had extra fat on her. But I found out it was fluid retention. I watched her lay on the bed one night during the beginning phase of this, and her heart was beating so hard, it was shaking my king size bed. I knew something was going on….so when I fasted her, and let her body clear out all of what it was reacting to, she was able to get rid of all the excess fluid. I remember her not having much stamina, and her breathing was labored and she got tired quickly. I think she’s doing ok now, but she has zero fat on her. She’s my girl, so there’s nothing I won’t do for her.

Moods…the ups and downs. I use a mood tracker called Daylio. I’ve been using it for quite a few years, and it will put into a visual your moods, in graph form so you can see what’s going on. By month, day, or year. It’s been very helpful for me to process when I’m up or feel a downward spiral coming on.

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I also have crisis on speed dial, and a list of things to do when it gets bad. I’ve set these in place with my therapist.

Anywho, happy Monday. When I said my prayers this morning I prayed for positivity and protection for my family and friends.

More later… I have some great videos to share. And please subscribe, like, follow and share. It really helps me out. I’m building this online presence organically, as I can’t afford to pay for ads… not even sure if I would do that.. but maybe…for the products that I use to save my life.

Please don’t forget that you are not alone if you are struggling. Text 988 for immediate help, or reach out to me or someone you are close to. Mental health needs to be destigmatized in this country.



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So it’s 18 April, 2023, 2023??? Where has the time gone

2023? What the heck. I turn 54 in a month. Spring time is here and the summer chores are ramping up… which I love…the older I get the more I like the warmer weather…but this past winter we had the most beautiful snowfall…here’s a quick video I took…I loved it. It was one of those snow storms, that had no wind, big fat wet fluffy snowflakes, and it all made the land so quiet and peaceful.

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Now spring is here… the barn swallows and purple martins are back…that is my sure sign that winter is over… although we have a couple of days where it’s going to get chilly in the evening, but it won’t last long.

I camped out in my #jeepminicamper during the last thunder storm, and it was AMAZING….here’s a quick video I took of the light show.

I can’t express how much I love thunderstorms… they are forecasting more in the next couple of days… and you guessed it, I’ll be out in it.

It’s being out here, like right now, in my little camper, with my dog, listening to the birds that creates a safe space feeling for me. I can see my horse out grazing, and she’ll eventually come over to say hi. I’ve posted some amazing videos I’ve gotten of her on my YouTube channel…check them out if you’d like. I’m really building that channel, because I love the community. I’m considering deactivating my facebook…just not sure yet.

So it’s 18 April, 2023, 2023??? Where has the time gone

Anyway, here’s the link for my YouTube, if you’re interested. If you like my channel, would you consider subscribing, following, liking, and turning on notifications? I’m doing this the old fashioned way, organically growing my channel, and I’d love to have you along for my journey. Also, if there is something that you want me to talk about on my podcast, or something you want me to share on my YouTube, shoot me a message on any of my socials. I’ll do my best to accommodate you. 💜

Symptoms the past few days have been somewhat level.. just dealing with physical pain. But my Humble Collective Gummies relieve those pains, I can’t live without them. They are my go-to for pain and anxiety. I only take my prescription medication as a last resort. Here’s the link for the gummies if you are interested. (They are legal in all 50 states, so don’t worry, and you’ll get a $10 coupon with my link.)

So that’s it for today…I have to edit some footage, and get some more work done for my podcast…I’m posting those on the weekends for right now. You can find me on iHeart, Apple, Google, Spotify and Amazon podcasts. But be patient… I’m still learning.

Have a great day!



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What a crazy couple of days…sorry I’ve missed posting. Here’s what’s new, and old…if you feel like me. 😂. Also, looking for info on spinal stenosis L4-L5.

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I just thought this was a cute picture of an opossum, so I added it… lol….

Anyway. It was 80 degrees yesterday, and now it’s 30….😳….but I think spring is on the way. I saw a barn swallow scout, so that’s a good sign. It’s always been my measure to be able to tell when spring is ACTUALLY on the way. I opened up the purple martin house, because they will soon be scouting as well. I hope.

Last Friday I had an MRI of my lumbar region due to pain in that area. It really started to hurt a lot a couple of weeks ago. Anyway, the results came back as spinal canal stenosis in the L4-L5, with ligament and facet hypertrophy with disc bulge/protrusion. My doctor immediately said I need surgery. I caught my breath because I don’t want surgery on my spine. I consulted with a few people and got varying degrees of opinions, with varying results.

What a crazy couple of days…sorry I’ve missed posting. Here’s what’s new, and old…if you fee like me. 😂. Also looking for info on spinal stenosis L4-L5

Basically for some surgery has been a life saver, for others it’s made their life worse, and for some it’s done nothing. Just from the limited amount of research I’ve done so far, I’ve opted out of surgery for now. I’m 53 years old, and realize that I’ve been hard on my body. But I’m not ready to let them start digging into my spine.

I’ve found some more exercises that I can do, and I’m going to pick back up with my yoga, and work on strengthening my core. That seems to be a big benefit. I’ve also made an appointment with a kinesiology doctor to see if that can help.

Just since yesterday, I’ve notice a difference in the amount of pain, just since I’ve done some of the stretches and core strengthening. So I’m hopeful.

Anyone have any experience with spinal stenosis? What has worked? What hasn’t? Please let me know via comments, or email. I would be very appreciative.



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I’m running a t-shirt beta test with this company. OOOH!!! And I made my 1st podcast!!!

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If you click on the the t-shirt it will show you the different colors and styles that are available. I also have a nature type campaign that I’m running, I’ll post it below as well.

I’m running a t-shirt beta test with this company. OOOH!!! And I made my 1st podcast!!!

There are different colors for this campaign as well. Just click the t-shirt to go to the site.

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OH!!!! I published my first podcast today!!! It was kinda weird, but cool. It’s just a short intro type so I can see how it works. It can be found on most streaming podcast services, under SHASSYS WALKABOUT. It’s on iHeart, Spotify, iTunes and Amazon right now.

Here’s a link…this is just for Spotify, as I’m still trying to figure this out… lol

Click HERE to listen to my first podcast.

Podcasts, men’s t-shirts, women’s t-shirts, children’s t-shirts, clothing, summer wear.