I want to share something, that’s kind of personal.

Shame. Some days during the times when I’m struggling, usually the down, or low part, I feel intense shame. Shame for what? I’ve made a lot of mistakes during life, but I’m working on forgiving myself. I’ve come a long way, but some days it’s just overwhelming. I feel the same shame that I felt as a child….it’s that kind of feeling, like you’re doing everything wrong. I know it’s not the case, but some days it becomes all encompassing and I feel like a child again. I work through it, it’s just a pain in my ass. I THINK I understand why I feel this way, and I know that it’s rooted from childhood, so that helps in processing through it and realizing that I don’t need to feel ashamed about myself, my body, anything….that’s usually where it heads.

In 2019 I was diagnosed with another brain fart disease. I had already been diagnosed with PTSD, CPTSD, MDD and generalized anxiety disorder. When I tested again, it said I have borderline personality disorder. When I found out initially I was scared, ashamed, embarrassed….all of the feelings. Then I did some research.

Borderline Personality Disorder is generally caused from trauma…you can read the definition here via Mayo Clinic link. (Just click the colored words.

I realized that it was caused from the things I went through as a child, and surprisingly I was sort of relieved knowing WHAT caused it, as it made it easier for me to deal with and change my behavior. It was like a lightbulb moment for me…as it explained my irrational and erratic behavior throughout different times in my life.

I want to share something, that’s kind of personal.

I have the distinct memory of thinking many times throughout my life, that something was wrong…that my brain wasn’t working right, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. The final puzzle piece was handed to me in 2019, and I felt like I could understand it all.

I still have lingering insecurities, but I’m human. I still deal with remnants of childhood feelings, but again, I’m human, and that’s ok.

I just wish I had known then what I know now.



Below is a featured product that I use EVERY DAY. Check it out if you like!

Let It Glow

I like to use this at night. It keeps my skin soft, and I’ve never had any issues with it causing any breakouts or anything. I use the Blossom and Fruit, and Facial Serum during the day. My skin has never felt better.

This is also the sunscreen I use. It has hyaluronic acid and squalene in it. With just a touch of glow…not heavy and it feels great! (Click the pictures to take you to the site.)

Both of these products are cruelty free. Which is a must for me.

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So I surprised Ricky Raccoon last night, for the second time. 🤣

I was walking into the kitchen, and saw Mr R. through the sliding glass door. I went back to get my phone and snuck into the kitchen to the window and got this.

Let me preface this by saying I put up all the bulk cat food we feed at night. But there always some little tidbits that he/she thinks he/she needs.

It was just a funny look on he/she’s face when she realized I was watching her through the kitchen window.

They KNOW that they aren’t supposed to be there, but food over rules everything.

Humble Collective Facial Serum
Product of the day. Humble Collective Facial serum. Press on any colored/underlined, highlighted words to get full, cruelty free, small batch, unadulterated facial serum. I use this and it’s the best I’ve ever put in my face.

I LOVE nature. Being out in it, sitting with the wild animals, hanging out with my horse. It brings me peace on those hard days when I’m struggling with symptoms of my mental health diagnoses.

Anywho, wanted to share this cute funny animal reaction.



Blossom and Fruit Product Highlight

Blossom and Fruit Product Highlight

This is another product from Humble Collective CBD that I use. Blossom and Fruit harvested right from the owners wild, untouched land. It’s another amazing product.

Here are the ingredients: : Dandelion*, violet petals*, organic rose petals, organic plum kernel oil, organic grapeseed oil, organic red raspberry oil, hibiscus oil, ylang ylang essential oil, blueberry seed oil and full spectrum hemp extract. (*wildcrafted) (Citied directly from here.)

Here are some benefits of these ingredients. (Cited directly from here.)

  • Dandelion: Rich in antioxidants, dandelions have anti-aging benefits for the skin. Dandelion extract can help to nourish the skin by reducing fine lines and wrinkles, and toning unbalanced skin. The plant contains detoxifying properties that rid the skin of toxins that clog pores and cause acne, as well as vitamin C to speed up the body’s natural healing process and reduce the appearance of scars and skin inflammation.
  • Plum Kernel Oil: Full of nourishing omega fatty acids (13 different kinds to be exact) and vitamins A and E, which heal and hydrate dry skin, hair and nails better than any other oil out there. Plum oil also has anti-inflammatory properties that help to reduce the appearance of—ready for it?—puffiness, irritation, dark spots, under-eye circles, wrinkles and dry skin. It’s also good for soothing skin conditions like eczema and psoriasis.
  • Grapeseed Oil: Unlike other oils that may only suit certain skin types or clog pores, grapeseed oil is a lightweight oil that’s noncomedogenic, making it suitable for most skin types—including sensitive and acne-prone. anti-inflammatory and anti-microbial, making it an ideal sidekick in your fight against breakouts, prevents free radical damage, reduce inflammation, and minimizes fine lines and wrinkles. 
  • Red Raspberry Oil: Red raspberry seed oil is cold-pressed from red raspberry seeds and packed with essential fatty acids and vitamins. Among its many benefits, it’s believed to offer protection from the sun.
  • Hibiscus Oil: Hibiscus oil supports your body’s natural collagen production, may help slow down collagen degradation, prevent elastin breakdown, and can help ease inflammation from the inside out. 
  • Ylang Ylang Essential Oil: Promotes skin healing, helps relieve dry skin, enhances circulation and helps new skin form. 
  • Blueberry Seed Oil: Blueberry Seed Oil is made from cold-pressed blueberries, it is high in the essential fatty acids Omegas 3 and 6 and alpha linolenic acid.  These work with the skin’s natural barrier, helping it to function well, and improving overall tone and firmness. Omega oils reduce redness, condition and protect, and help the skin to repair itself. Blueberry Seed Oil also contains Vitamin E which helps to minimise fine lines and tackles loss of elasticity and hyper-pigmentation.
  • Full Spectrum Hemp Extract: CBD naturally elevates levels of anandamide. Higher levels of anandamide supports your body’s own natural process to reduce inflammation. Inflammation can cause redness, irritation, rashes and even breakouts. Full-spectrum CBD gives you smoother, calmer and more radiant skin”

So if this sounds like some all natural, good for your skin and extremely affordable amazing skin food, check it out if you want.


Product Highlight-Let It Glow

Product Highlight-Let It Glow

My goodies came today from my favorite store, Humble Collective CBD. (Click underlined to go to their site.)

This is one of two products I’ll be talking about over the next two days.

I’m attempting to NOT go into aging gracefully, but with the least amount of wrinkles and skin damage as possible. I was a sun queen when I was younger, and I do get a lot of sun during the summer at the ranch doing yard work, and stuff like that. But I can’t be without my Humble skincare. Yes, I’ve tried other products, on purpose, to see how my skin reacts, and it just feels better when I use all natural, additive free products. Maybe it just me, but I don’t think so. These products are good.

So let’s get into it. The Let It Glow serum is filled with everything your skin wants and needs for nourishment, and cell regeneration.

Ingredients are: organic grapeseed oil, organic camellia seed oil, organic sunflower and olive oil infused with (all organic herbs) of: comfrey, nettle, chickweed, chamomile, lavender, yarrow, calendula and arnica, organic argan oil, roman chamomile and frankincense essential oils, CBD isolate, CBG isolate.

That’s it! Not words you can’t pronounce, not water, and all GOODNESS for your face.

Comfrey has been found to help the skin be “less susceptible to wrinkles” (cited directly from here.)

That’s just one of the ingredients. Check out the site for more information, here.


Natural cruelty free soap.

brown container beside the bars of soup
Natural cruelty free soap
Natural cruelty free
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I found a natural soap company that is cruelty free and not filled with yucky stuff, that you don’t want on your skin. More coming as I do further research.

Here are two companies that I have found that are natural, cruelty free, and have what seems to be, just good products.

Apple Valley Natural Soap…here’s your one stop, vegan, CF, natural, place to get soap, lotions, all the things for your body. Click here to check out their site.

Another great company is Beetanicals. I can’t even begin to list all the good things from this company, and again it’s CF..which is a must. Click here to check out their site.

Ok, so I am researching some natural soap/beauty products. I am so weird about what I put on my skin…. I make my own deodorant…lol.. I don’t want a bunch of chemicals on my skin.

Don’t stink and don’t ruin your body, and be nice to animals.


Humble Collective Facial Serum is the best skincare I’ve put on my face. 10/10 recommended.

Humble Collective Facial Serum
Humble Collective Facial Serum is the best skincare I’ve put on my face. 10/10 recommended.

You can click on any underlined word, or picture to get a description and/or go check out their site yourself, and try this amazing product.

Humble collective facial serum
Humble Collective Facial Serum

This facial serum is full of all of the things your skin needs and wants. I have had no reactions at all using this, and have been using it for about a year.

The ingredients are listed below:

If you click on any underlined word, or picture, it will take you to the description of the ingredient, and the picture will take you to Humble Collective’s site, and you can order some of your own. REMEMBER to use my code “Humble Alternative” for extra discounts.

When you go to their SITE, you can also create an account if you choose, but you don’t have to. Use my code “Humble Alternative” for a discount.

This is part of a series I’m doing on the last couple of orders I’ve received from the HC group. Sarah is awesome at answering questions, and if you join their group, you get all kinds of goodies, and sneak peaks at upcoming sales, etc.

If you notice, there are no fillers, and no words that you can’t understand. This is literally plant medicine, unadulterated. I’ve done little experiments with different products, so I can testify that these products have worked the best.

They are cruelty free. Which is a BIG thing for me. I do not like companies that test on animals. As a matter of fact, a lot of times, they test their products on themselves first, before they give their ok, to release to the public.

I can’t say enough good things about Humble Collective CBD and Humble Alternative. I love their products.

Any questions? Leave a comment, or send me a message.


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2nd Product info in the three part series on my last couple of Humble orders.

2nd Product info in the three part series on my last couple of Humble orders.
2nd product info

This is rosin pressed….think of how olive oil is produced. They take the hemp plant and place in a powerful press, with a little heat, and it literally squeezes out all of the goodies. Remember our bodies already have an endocannabinoid system, so this plant is made to work with our bodies and create homeostasis.

“A rosin press is a machine that uses a pair of heated plates to press with enough pressure any cannabis, and hemp material, such as buds, keif, or hash, which causes the cannabinoids and terpenes to seep out in an oily form called rosin. Rosin gained popularity with its solventless yet easy extraction process.” (Sited from trimleaf.com)

The ingredients are as follows:

  • Organic MCT oil
  • hemp extract.

That’s it. Not additives, nothing. Pure plant medicine. You can check out this product, and all of their other products via this safe link.


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