Willy Nilly and my brain fog…

Good morning peeps. If you’ve read any of my previous blog posts, you’ll see that I struggle. I struggle with depression, ptsd symptoms, borderline personality disorder… just a bunch of mental shit. It gets tough sometimes, and I cry a lot.

You’ll also have seen that in 2021 I spent hours and hours researching how to make financial changes in my life, and anchor that with what I deal with mentally.

I don’t like to say “can’t”…so I’ll use the word challenge. I’ve been challenged a lot to be able to function on a daily basis…so I needed to find a way to still be successful, and work around those ”challenges”.

Towards the end of 2021, I found the way/process I was going to use change my life, I’ve taken some training, and done a lot of research on how to make it work. I’m getting ready to launch.. finally!

One of the biggest mitigating factors in my life has been fear. Fear of failure, fear of hurt, fear of just almost anything. It’s been that way since I was a child. Mix in adult trauma, and symptoms and the fact that I am my own motivator…..well, it gets ”challenging” some days. Most recently I’ve been overcome with sadness and depression, along with anxiety attacks. I’ll be honest, I went to my PRN meds to make it through the days. I now see the end of this cycle, and am also fighting to bring an end to this cycle, because no one is going to put in the work except ME. I have to remember it’s ok to take a break. Which is what I’ve done for a few days here and there over the last weeks.

So, onward and upward.

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